When It Falls Into Place, You and I

i'm in pain, my toes are numb...i wouldnt blame them..they've been walking all day from 7 in the morning yesterday to 6 pm yesterday in school..yes i had to stay till that time doing an after school activity...my heels feel like they've stepped in glass and soaking them in hot salt water has done nothing, freaking useless.

to top that all off as i was walking around in my room, the ground is made of marble, everything is so my darling baby sister is walking before me and all of a sudden i trip on my feet ;( and i push her out of my way trying to use the wall as a net to catch me but she was in the way..i moved her fast as not to bring her down with me and i fell on my spine..and on the cold marble ground i couldnt reach the wall fast enough..im still in pain and when it happened i turned quickly laying on my stomache as not to paralyze the pain but make it flow...i have no idea how i got the energy to do such reaction...and when i retold the story to my sister, she laughed at me :P

so now basically im aching, im tired, im weary, im cold, im hot, im stiff, im sore and i am i am a clutz today...i almost fell down the staircase as well...either its me or gravity isnt working its magic on me...what i need is a relaxing sleep session call never wake...:0) care to join..

the battlefield fallen to the ground...

A Beautiful Lie

Disclaimer: Who reads this BATTLEFIELD blog? comeout comeout dont hide...curiousty once killed the black cat ;p

neeways:

i havent slept yet i decided since tomorrow is school, i should fix my sleeping trouble and last till 7 pm tonight and then snooze till dawn...that shall be refreshing at least i hope it will be. i do wish i dont fall asleep during the day plus i am having lunch at grandma's so inshallah i dont fall prey to the coziness and drift off to sleep....blah i dont like sleep anymore i use to love it but no worries when school gets back to session i will running back to my love, sleep and maybe then i can have some decent dream sleep.

brightside, all the crappy tv shows airing during ramadan ended...and with them i ended with tears of regret yes i wasted my time watching those shows i started off not watching but then i was thrown into their whirlpool. let me tell u how this!!! i demand and shall sue i need my hours back that i wasted on those stupid stupid stupid...do you see where i'm goin with this...screw them i cried in the ending of 7beeb el rou7 (although i hate egyptian shows this one appealed to me..it was great but sucky worthless ending), and other shows as well..maybe i am over sensitive and i shall have to take a crashcourse to be rigid, stern and emotionless...yallah next ramadan oh wait...*daydreams* maybe not


lastly, i demand someone ..a blogger write a script that is worth watching and dosent suck....

i do miss ramadan alot,

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:o(
:0(

I Grab Your Attention With This...

Let me grab your attention: Did anyone know for a fact, Jacqui can't open her own bottle of water, she uses me to turn her caps. I swear, she will kill me. Oh well, that's one thing off my chest ;P

Now since I got you reading...here is what's been going on with ... After pleading for someone to cough at me, week by week- I have finally gotten sick. The flu has paid visit to everyone weeks ago (my siblings, my parents, everyone around and it didnt bother me) but now finally, it knocks me down. It doesnt have the deceny to even ring the door bell.

You might wonder, "why the hell do you want someone to cough at you"..this stupid girl typing, thought it was be a great sensation, the running nose, the stiff throat, the words all husky as they formulate on her tongue and the disfigured coughs. Yes, I am odd but I guess you can say satisfication has finally set, I have gotten what I asked for.

Well, I should just take things slowly, finish the work that keeps stacking up. I'm always smarter when I get sick. It's a blessing now, I can write better...study wise ;} I have three essays for apps and I can feel the barrier breaking...I can feel the words flowing easily on word(microsoft) ;) anyways, I am thankful...sick but thankful.

leave me a comment about the spoiler...do you do something so simple for anyone...me i turn the caps, to help jacqui's palm..she says it hurts ;p yea right

Something You Want To Forget About

Last birthday? Feb. 8 2006

Last meal? Burger King...it stuffed me to the core

Last spending splurge? pardon me, but i dont recall my last spendin splurge ;9... i think im going to have one soon as it is hehehe ;) you dont need to know ehem

Last time you cried? do you even care..so why bother telling ;[

Last career? erm i'm retired didnt you know :P

Last website visited? Scarlo's Blog...the darling whose done this to me...i shall kill you ;} but i still luv u

Last person you spoke to? My baby sister..Lujain

Last song you listened to? the fray - heaven forbid

Last book you read? The lady and the unicorn by tracy chavilear

Last TV show watched? Ugly Betty but it wasnt on tv...so i guess the last tv show i watched was حبيب الروح

Last person you IM'd? i'm on a break!

Last word you said? you....you did say last word so you dont know what was before the 'you' part...curious arnt yah ;)



btw i hate anything that includes the number 23........the day, the age, the everything...that number to me is something dead...doesnt exist on my calendar or anything :[

btw blogging is wearing off on me...i am actually censored in my thoughts cuz now i know that ... ahh u dont care so i wont bother ;)

LAST BTW COLORS ARENT WORKING WITH ME...

Give Back My Voice..I'm Lost Without It

i've lost myself- i seem to be at loss with words, i've tried numerous times to begin a post but to no avail i am configured to this spot...wordless and desiring to speak but someone holds a key to my chamber of thoughts and i've lost sight in everything...i am saddened with misery for not helping me out, i need to assemble myself and...hmph

inspire me while i am shackled to this fate of being speechless residing without words.


-battlefield

Go Away No I've Had Enough Of You

A picture is worth a thousand unspoken words...
wont you say?...

how can you mend a broken heart...?

saturday: slow and uneventful
sunday: just keep it moving
monday: allah yastir what's to come :P

ramadan is almost over....its going away too soon...i love this month bas it goes by with the blink of an eye... inshallah its coming days are beautiful:-)

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btw the sky is no longer grey in my forecast you were the shadow trapping me so go away now, i've had enough of you!!!

It's In Water Baby...It's Between You and Me

you explain...

LET ME CATCH MY BREATHE

YOU WENT BY SO FAST
LET ME CATCH MY BREATHE
REPEAT TOMORROW
TONIGHT WAS NOT AS PLANNED
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING FOR YOU
YOUR UNFINISHED
STACKED ON MY DESK
A FEW HOURS LEFT
THEN IM SUCKED BACK TO YOUR WHIRPOOL
WISHING FOR THE WEEKEND
ONCE AGAIN
WE REPEAT OUR STEPS

---erm just verifying that i didnt do anything productive and i have so much to do...today to be extremely :(

Chained Malice With No Desire

blindfold her eyes

touch her creamy skin
tell her tomorrow's anguish
can dispense with a smile on her lips

bind her hands
grip her wrist
touch her fingernails
and whisper this

'your bound to my illusion'
this is your conclusion

yet now
he's her disgrace
she spits blindly at his face
he holds on to her tighter

this image ripes from intensity
their souls are chained physically
one fights fiercely to be released
the other ferociously holds on aggravated to his knees

disaster will strike their chaotic bliss
they both end
before anything begins



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everything is going forward, but i cant seem to walk straight...i need a relaxation week to move away from the stress of school and other .... and everything was meant to be for those sweet and sour moments that unmask your emotions and test your skin....about week six into the year...i'm fused waiting to explode...

well then i better get going enjoy the poetry i wrote which sedates my nerves ;]

no picture cuz me and blogger are hating each other it refuses to load any of my pictures so we are on a break ;P

Without When Within You

a book i checked out plan to schedule a day soon to get lost into it

my thingies that store my books...i love to put brochures of musuems and etc my pops gives me...it makes me experience beauty without taking a step...

i am mulling over many ideas, many concepts, many everythings...but no outcome is present, no pamphlet of accomplishments was published...i see a detour coming up ahead...should i take a turn or just crash into the construction sign...


life would be meaningless without the struggles so life give me more struggles and flavor these days cause last month you seasoned me all over with much tooo many burdens..this month i am the one begging for your miserable glory...

btw it sucks when you make the girge3an you get snipped by the cutter trying to flair that string into a ribbon without a good result ending up needing to redo everything to square one...

Will You Still Be There When It Ends?..

Do you like it?
I drew this in paint, the progam you find in your accessories file thingie
It took quiet awhile to make this expression...
It's my feeling of the moment
The drawing can speak words that I dont need to touch on...


tu: it just never ends does it...did it even begin???

Opens Up For Nobody....

You made me wait so long, so long that
I got used to missing you
You came back after a long time
I now love longing for you more than I love you
---poem by Aziz Nesin

I came across this poem today and feel in love, i also fell out of love of something with reality...i can say this and it might hint .."where did i go wrong, i lost a ... somewhere along in the bitterness..."

tu.. i dont care anymore, continue this charade but we wont ever be the same again..never if this is all a lie.