You'll Never Figure Me Out

i remember....

undying memories that left me blind
breathe in, exhale that breathe out

you shoved me against the stone hedges of that door
slapped my face thrice it was
then ended the brutality by uttering those words
and flattering my neck in wounds of broken glass
blood separated the odds
i relapsed into sanity
you pushed me to the ground

light those matches and burn my skin
i dont feel pain

....
i never have


erm i should be studying for my two tests i have tomorrow instead of writing ;}
whats going on with you..?
me this is my last september ever in highschool ;)

We Just Tore Apart...

you picture me, i picture you
we tear apart
from our core to the edges
putting the pieces back together
with my tears and the waxing residue from the candle we left lit near the frame
for dying happiness and our intricate chaos
we are in bliss of ending without a begining to start
we just tore apart...

dont put me back together

click...dont pause.
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fyi: ;{ hope you like that short piece.... :}

Just Sit Back And Relapse

the taste of tea after fa6oor is just so exhilarating and pleasing, where as, during normal months it's just plain, steaming hot and dark shade of crimson.

i had three cups, still wanting more...i'm guessing it isn't good to intake this much tea :)

Yellow Petals On Green Vines

i love this painting, love it - love it
just so serene, calm and soothing to look upon
dont recall the painters name but nonetheless, a work of art.

All In Me Aching To Release

Staring Back at Me
.....
why cant i just forward this week and come to that night of seeming of nothing left

why???

physics,astronomy,toefl all of that bogus tomorrow
god save me

Sometimes in Life...

....

Cold Lonesome Bowl of Misery

week three:

saturday: i dont remember you or me.
sunday: i'll walk for your dawn but you settle at mine.
monday: in between days waiting for two weeks to go by without a touch of the next
tuesday: too much plans for a journey of tests next week..
wednesday: i cried you a river and you ...


i dont give a damn anymore....so just leave me "out with the waste"


oh what fun last to be, september of all years no coming back to high school...senior steps getting closer to graduation... whatever.

And Then We Fall To The Ground

The misery and hate you lived in will never let us be. I am desperate for release- from your gruesome reality. We are living nothing but a lie of dying love, abiding loyalty to better the odds of ending up tangled in wounds of our own making. Our eyes speak the words that bit our tongues, bruised our lips and inflicted hurt against ourselves. I choose to disregard your preceptions and devour our so called lust - bleed till this feeling of pain numbs my course. End it now my venegeance to an enemy - we together cause a newfound war. We together are not one, you condescend me and I exhale my hurt on your skin- and then we fall to the ground.


a short crappy piece by me trying to take a break from working on that never ending project and touching up on my essay... argh ;) i crave sleep!

Nothing Less Than Ever More...

went to virgin...found the book i was longing to get...i'm so filled with glee just must add time in my schedule to read it...but i didnt find the other book cant wait to snuggle up with, my sisters keeper.

the book i got is called "the lady and the unicorn"...since i read "girl with the pearl earring" it coerced me into wanting to read the authors other book and so here i stand with it waiting for the right moment to devour the book and enjoy the words...i cant wait till i have time with no tests or anything holding me back from reading with ease :)

i saw a monkey, the cutest monkey in a pink tutu in a car...ford it was....adorable adorable adorable.....so now these days to pick up chicks or etc you get an adorable pet and force them into extinction but got to say, clever thinking a girls downfall are cute animals...:P

beautiful friday, great beginning and inshallah a great end....well then i'm off to sprinkle fairy dust here and there and eat me some dinner to get a good nights rest for the day to come ahead.

;)

You Disregard My Efforts And Completely Shatter

week two of ... nothing much

saturday- surreal moments without troubles & birth of my cousin ;)
sunday- dont leave me alone saturday, at least delay tomorrow
monday- a wrinkled sheet of loose leaf paper with ink stains
tuesday- your true colors penetrate your fake self..
wednesday- i'm too old for your s***t - so grow up!

week two of senior year oh what fun i'm filled with glee and disappointment!

bunch of tests for next weeks forecast
maybe i'm overstating things but thats how they seem to me this instant of a second


i try to mend the broken pieces that scored your eyes and tensed your smile but the glue isnt strong enough to mask your true emotions - you disregard my efforts and completely shatter......

till the next post ...

I'm Not Temporary... I'm Permanent

**** ***!

i dont care if this offends you
i dont give a damn anymore
do you really blame me
just look around this world
no one gives a ****
people just walk all over you easily
but i stood up and
i'll do it again
i'm a battlefield
i've earned my name
so **** off and do the same
*****

When We Part

if i acclerate your heartbeat would you decelerate my rotation about your feet.
if i begged your velocity to slow all this down would our displacement be miles farther apart.
if i told you this nonsense is a link between astronomy and physics
late night studying for an ackward quiz
summarizing all of what i read no doubt this outcome is rather marvelous
tells you for a fact my minding is on focus ;)
but damn memorizing equations is a setback
these constellations in the sky are lighting this knowlegde
overflowing my revolution in the course of my orbit
neither physics nor astronomy can ruin my forecast ;)

creative dontcha think ;P

Tropical Storm of Emotions

saturday- breathing easily without force
sunday - just 3 more days till the weekend
monday- i want to get this year over and done with
tuesday- no longer breathing, why do they complicate things?
wednesday- living a nightmare cant wake up!

just week one of my last year ya rab ya rab everything unravels with ease in the upcoming weeks...this week was just too much consumed info, ****, far too long and far to slow...

complicate me but aggravate some other !!!

now tell me what would you say wanasa is?what would be funny to read?funny to see?i need your feedback!

Take The Pain Away

is that alright?

Dirty Little Secret - Depressed

She trembles on the verge of death; pain embodies the heartbeats perplexing the tears- she longer can handle any of this...She begs to disengage herself with the echo of silence. Just a few seconds to inhale this strangeness- not enough to exhale that breathe; she dies....right after you.