Lost Little Girl
I had something else planned for this post, my sadness and stress was going to launched in a different way... i had the post all done and all i had to do was click publish post...guess what happened yup the wonderful firefox decides to all of a sudden send an error telling me to close the windows opened and well stupid me i didn't save as draft before....so my day was screwed up....cursed....everything is wrong....so i decided to go sleep and well hope that everything will be back to normal.....that was a wrong assumption.
Well, I went to the beach on wednesday however it didnt calm me down, it no longer breaks the respite i care to see or it wont heal my scars and wounds from this stress on my shoulders.....my goodness when will this freaking school year end because its sucking me into its vortex and am tired of whirling and drowning yes i feel like that.... but unfortunately nothing can help me, nothing at all because am too tired, depressed and too many things are coming up....i just cant wait till those unwept tears will fall on my cheeks....am not kiddin nope.....i hope i can make it through these last weeks of the hell hole i am in........inshallah everything goes back to normal....whatever happened to my positive self way back in februray when everyday was bright and my birthday cheered me up and how this and that was all shining on me.....what happened am asking.....? but oh dear me....i guess i shall end this story....cause i have said too much.... :(
Well, I went to the beach on wednesday however it didnt calm me down, it no longer breaks the respite i care to see or it wont heal my scars and wounds from this stress on my shoulders.....my goodness when will this freaking school year end because its sucking me into its vortex and am tired of whirling and drowning yes i feel like that.... but unfortunately nothing can help me, nothing at all because am too tired, depressed and too many things are coming up....i just cant wait till those unwept tears will fall on my cheeks....am not kiddin nope.....i hope i can make it through these last weeks of the hell hole i am in........inshallah everything goes back to normal....whatever happened to my positive self way back in februray when everyday was bright and my birthday cheered me up and how this and that was all shining on me.....what happened am asking.....? but oh dear me....i guess i shall end this story....cause i have said too much.... :(
I miss my sister, so far away and she too is feeling the stress but damn she would always cheer me up and tell me to look at the brightside and i miss our sisterly time where we watch tv and comment on everything and all the ......, i miss watching Las Vegas, Oprah, Ricki Lake, baby member those days......my goodness i miss my childhood i dont like this ...one more year ..... on more year and then i guess i can have the world....but till then am a lost little girl. :(
Now i shall lose myself in the algebra textbook, test coming up, chemistry notes, quiz tomorrow as well as a lab, history book, but shall leave that for tomorrow....yup this week is going to be the week of tests and am feeling under the weather think i got a cold....but oh well.... cheer up... i should smile because maybe tomorrow will be a better day....inshallah it is...:( till then my chocolate fudge brownies are keeping me company in a time like this :/.
Now i shall lose myself in the algebra textbook, test coming up, chemistry notes, quiz tomorrow as well as a lab, history book, but shall leave that for tomorrow....yup this week is going to be the week of tests and am feeling under the weather think i got a cold....but oh well.... cheer up... i should smile because maybe tomorrow will be a better day....inshallah it is...:( till then my chocolate fudge brownies are keeping me company in a time like this :/.
posted by Your Battlefield at 4/21/2006 01:14:00 PM
5 Comments:
I have read your post and I dont' know what to say but cheer up hun! Think of something that you like and that puts a smile on your face and do it!
I don't want to deprive your privacy "Your Battlefield" but it seems these days you are really depressed. Why is that? What happened? The titles of your posts are one of the signs of depression.
I hope you pull yourself together and be happy all time...please feel free to delete this comment if it bothers you.
the stallion: heheh thanks for these kind words....inshallah my days brighten up
fallen angel: why on earth would i care to delete your comment, back in the first days of my bloggin experience i said in one of my posts that i welcome every comment and any comment good or bad and yours is jsut kind and it really made me smile....well to answer the reason for my troubles is too many things to do and so little days left so its basically about school and etc...nothing dramatic hamdallah....well most of my post titles are songs i was listening to when writing so i guess u can say they can hint my depression but inshallah my days will brighten up....it was thoughtful and grateful of you to pay me a visit....i still havent watched ice age and i have it on dvd....no time though :P
you sound like a mini version of your Edna sister!
Whats wrong with you people, all you do is complain!
one day you will skip a beat and instead of conserve your words....vent and vent like hell come on purg....you know u find it appealing i dare you for one post to just vent and rant about anything about about the topic of complaining :P
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